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fickle February 25, 2010

Posted by putomaia in Jitters, Private Me, Random Rambling.

Reg sent me this text message ten days ago:

“Waiting is the most important thing that you can do for love, but it proved me one thing. As it goes it can also change your mind.”

I think the same happened to me. I am aware that I wrote sometime ago that I may never have feelings for a person other than him. I have always thought so. Until we started to talk again.

Some people may say that I’m feeling the way I feel right now because my friends didn’t like him. Believe me, that’s not the case. I’m not exactly famous for listening to my friends’ advice.

I didn’t know what happened. Before, I see him in school and think that I have always been waiting for him, that I can never talk to him again, that someday we will meet in another place, in another time, all that is perfect.

But now that I can talk to him almost everyday? I realized that what I felt was just longing. 聽Even if it’s contrary to what other people may feel, I honestly like his personality. It’s as if I can see more than what other people can see. (Okay, time to puke) No seriously, it’s like I’ve been wanting to just be friends again. Nothing more than that.

And now I realize that my feelings can be turned on and off and on again and off again in lightning speed.

PS: Show’s over, time to make my thesis. 馃槮


galing sa fb February 21, 2010

Posted by putomaia in Private Me, Random Rambling.

Result ng test sa Facebook. Ayoko lang syang ipublish dahil ayoko lang.

Dear Maan Laxa, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You are down-to-earth
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : People like you because you are so straightforward
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend – you are looking for your life partner
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person
The seriousness of your love:
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You are very serious about relationships
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : Aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : If you meet the right person
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You will fall deeply
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : Beautifully in love
Your views on education:
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You listen to your own instincts
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : Tend to follow your heart
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : So you will probably end up with an unusual job
The right job for you:
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You have many goals
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : Want to achieve as much as you can
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy
How do you view success:
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : Nothing will stop you from trying
What are you most afraid of:
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : You are afraid of things that you cannot control
聘痰獭訙痰台虅品 : Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel

Parang halos perfect ah.. Kewl 馃檪

the story of the lost and found ID January 28, 2010

Posted by putomaia in Private Me, Sorority Girl, Uber Friends.

I just found my ID earlier. It went MIA since last semester. Now I know why I never cared to go and have another ID made.

Maybe this is also true with old friends. In this case, friends since I stepped on the muddy soil of UPMin. You meet many people, you become close with them, intimate even (oops!). More people became memorable in my life as I went through college but I guess nothing beats a simple bond between true friends who accidentally got to know each other inside out.

My day started out far from good. I have to inject ink into our cartridge, a job I really hate, and I just had three hours of sleep. My New Media class is haunting me. Promise, babawi ako.

I went home early (first time since forever) and got sick along the way. BTW thanks Blue Taxi for the smooth ride. I got home, slept, ate, went through my thesis, and now I am still staring at a blank Word document thank you.

A sis told me about a stupid Facebook note which set my blood to a boiling point. Well, almost.

But this. This blog just made my day. There’s nothing better than a good friend making a fan testimonial of you. Just kidding. You of all people should know that I’m not expressive. But yeah, it means a lot to me. 馃檪

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01.01.10 January 1, 2010

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I love it. The date looks like a binary code. Okay, geek alert 馃榾

In all honesty, my New Year celebration last night wasn’t a blast. First, I made pa-load (oops sorry) AllText20, which is equivalent to a hundred text messages. Guess what? I was only able to send around fifteen messages. Panic mode. Panic mode. My brother went to buy load for me. Guess what? It never came. I was able to greet a grand total of twelve people last night. I was so pissed off. I know it may not be a big deal for others but it is a big one for me.

Second. I went to this street party at my village. All my friends weren’t there. Thanks a lot. My mother and sister came and they stayed. My brother went to another party. My father was at home, sleeping. I was doing nothing there so I went back home. Seeing that my father wouldn’t wake up no matter what, I opened a bottle of wine, popped the cork and all. I opened the big box of Ferrero chocolates and ate two. I ended up watching Harold and Kumar 2. Haha what a night.

Midnight came and the entire family decided to join me for Media Noche. After that, we watched Kimmy Dora until 2 am. Wild night huh? After finishing the movie, they all went to sleep aside from me. I stayed awake all night and went to sleep at around 6.

At least I was able to see the first sunrise of the year 馃檪 No pictures though; the camera was lowbat. I only have this.

me eating a lollipop. okay this isn't my most flattering pic, i know

I used to have a set of resolutions every year. From dieting to studying harder, from quitting alcohol to saving money. This year I only have one. I had so much fun late in 2009 that I decided that this year, I will try more new things. I will discover more of me. I will do whatever I want to do as long as it doesn’t hurt me or other people.

2009 have been relatively new, different from the previous years. I think I changed a lot this year. I did a lot of new things, I had a lot of new friends. 2009 has not been entirely good, though. Negative people and negative emotions abound. Then again, I have trouble remembering the negative. All I can think of now are the good memories I made this year with my favorite people. Of course you know who you are. All I can think of now is going back to school and making more memories for 2010.

Sabi nga ng Oasis, Don’t Look Back in Anger.

Mabuhay 2010!

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doubting December 17, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Angst is so 90s, Private Me, Random Rambling.

What if I know I can finish my thesis but I never got around to actually starting it?

What if there are still so many things I wanted to do before I graduate?

What if I’m still having so much fun with my brods and sisses who are yet to graduate?

What if I’m afraid that when I graduate I won’t see him anymore?

What if I’m not yet prepared for life outside the university?

Suddenly it doesn’t seem as if I’m afraid of not graduating on time.

Suddenly, I am confronted with a desire to continue my thesis next semester.

Suddenly, the thought of leaving UP does not seem so happy anymore.

Suddenly, attending all the events next school year seems like a good thing.

Suddenly, I forget my corporate dreams and just want to stay in UP.

I am not sure if this is just one of my teenage (as if!) insecurities but that’s honestly what I feel now. If parents don’t get mad at their children who do not graduate on time then I won’t have any problem.


happy December 3, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Private Me, Random Rambling.

I want to think happy thoughts tonight because I had a bad day.

I don’t want to think about my parents.

I don’t want to think about annoying classmates, thank you very much.

I don’t want to think about the issues involving my friends.

I don’t want to think about my love life, which is nonexistent by the way.

I don’t want to think about my thesis, which I haven’t started yet.

I don’t want to think about how many people I am avoiding at school, and vice versa. haha

Because I am happy.


putang galamay (Enriquez, 2009)


God ko, maiba naman tayo. Pwede pabawas naman ng problema, kahit isa lang?

Tutal papalapit na ang Pasko. 馃槮

of bad boys and realizations November 14, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Jitters, Private Me, Uber Friends.

First of all, forgive my last post. I was just in a drunken state of mind, albeit without the alcohol. I was just confused. Anyway, it’s not as if my mind already cleared. Perhaps I will always be in this perpetual state of confusion.

I did a lot of thinking yesterday, after I watched Paranormal Activity (no comment!) with George, Teena, JM, Reg, Alvin and Thomas. We finished the movie at around 2 am and George, Reg, JM and I braved Mintal for some shatting. I served gunner for them while they doused their livers with SMB and perfumed their lungs with Marlboro.

Segue: I am proud to say that during that night, I only ate a cheeseburger from Minute Burger (yours truly) and a can of Pepsi. 馃檪

Okay, so I did a lot of thinking. I realized that the feelings I have for the boy聽 in the last post were just anger and hurt. Nothing else, thank God. I also realized that I will always have feelings for the guy I have liked almost ever since I entered college. If you are a close friend, you’d have no problem guessing who this one is.

The other day, when George, Teena and I cut classes (oops, sorry sir!), George casually mentioned that for her, the feeling of being in love will always feel good, even if it hurts, even if it’s unrequited. I realized that it’s true, even in my case.

With a sudden jolt (haha char ba?), I realized that I can be perfectly content on viewing him as the most ideal person for me. He has this bad boy aura but he isn’t really. He doesn’t smoke, almost never drinks (though I won’t have any problem with these things). He’s cocky, he’s arrogant, he’s talented and he knows it. But I like it anyway.

We haven’t talked for two years maybe, and I won’t even be surprised if he doesn’t remember my name anymore. But I’m content with just remembering the things he did for me before. For me, it’s perfectly fine.

I’m still surprised though that I can maintain these feelings for him. I don’t know how one person can feel something this intense toward a person whom she doesn’t even know that much. But I guess this makes my own story, different from my friends’, different from anybody else’s.

Now I am preparing myself to be tormented by my uber friends. Expect me to play denial queen if you tease me, as always, but I already told the truth in this post.

go away November 10, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Jitters, Private Me.
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How come everything you do

always results to me being more and more confused?

Ano ba.

Stop being unpredictable.

Stop being predictable.

Stop confusing me.

(MSC: Quit playing games with my heart…)



You’re not even my type,

but I’m kind of bothered why you don’t talk to me anymore?

Sorry friends.

There are things which I simply can’t make myself tell you.

I know you don’t approve.

Promise, I also don’t approve. 馃槢

I also know it’s really stupid.

But I can’t help it.

Now I’ve got to sleep because I have a freaking 8:30 am class tomorrow.