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circus January 13, 2010

Posted by putomaia in Angst is so 90s, Jitters, Random Rambling.
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I am getting too attached to you.

For many reasons I know I shouldn’t be.

What is the opposite of attach?

Detach?

Yes that’s it.

I find it hard to do.

Oh freaky crap.

I don’t know how not to get too attached.

Afraid that I might already be.

And you are not making it easy.

I need help.

Badly.

* I would like to make a special shoutout to George. Remember the talk we had a loooong time ago about attachment issues? I need to talk to you about it again. There’s something we have to talk about anyway, right? Now that you can take a break from your thesis, I’ll corner you.

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doubting December 17, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Angst is so 90s, Private Me, Random Rambling.
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What if I know I can finish my thesis but I never got around to actually starting it?

What if there are still so many things I wanted to do before I graduate?

What if I’m still having so much fun with my brods and sisses who are yet to graduate?

What if I’m afraid that when I graduate I won’t see him anymore?

What if I’m not yet prepared for life outside the university?

Suddenly it doesn’t seem as if I’m afraid of not graduating on time.

Suddenly, I am confronted with a desire to continue my thesis next semester.

Suddenly, the thought of leaving UP does not seem so happy anymore.

Suddenly, attending all the events next school year seems like a good thing.

Suddenly, I forget my corporate dreams and just want to stay in UP.

I am not sure if this is just one of my teenage (as if!) insecurities but that’s honestly what I feel now. If parents don’t get mad at their children who do not graduate on time then I won’t have any problem.

Sigh.

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Protected: when will i ever learn? September 20, 2009

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issues August 30, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Angst is so 90s, School is Cool.
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Ang dami- daming issues sa Facebook. (Kaya dito na lang ako magpopost) Parang course war. All because of the cheerdance competition… na hindi namin napanood dahil alas diyes na kami nagising.

In short, wala talaga akong say. Kasi hindi ko naman alam ang nangyari. Ang alam ko lang, pinapaglaban ng Comm Arts (my course) na fair ang kanilang pagkapanalo, due to the ranking system na ginamit ng judges. Tapos ang sa Applied Math naman, may mali sa computations, knowing na hindi naman maa-add ang ordinal values.

OMG tama ba? Tapos ayun, parang lumaki na ang issue.

Anyway, may isang issue pa.

May nagpost daw sa freedom wall (OMG hindi ko rin to nakita. What’s wrong with me?) na mga bobo daw sa Math ang mga taga- Comm Arts.

I beg to disagree. Just because hindi Math- related ang kinuha naming course ay mahina na kami sa Math. Kunwari hindi broadcast media- related ang kinuha mong kurso ay bobo ka na sa aspetong ito? Hindi naman siguro.

Mayabang na kung mayabang. Pero nung nagtake ako ng Math nung first year, 1.75 ang grado ko. Medyo mataas naman yun hindi ba? Nadale nga lang ako sa Stat 1 dahil sabay ko itong kinuha sa STS ni Sir Rasco.

At eto pa. MST 3 ang kinukuha ko ngayong sem. MST 3 as in Math 1. Halu- halo ang mga kumukuha ng subject na ito. May mga taga- CSM din. Pero ipagmamalaki ko sa inyo na mataa- taas naman ang ranking naming mga Comm Arts.

Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ganito na lang ang pagsira sa kurso ko.

Walang ganyanan. Pare- pareho rin naman taung kumuha at nakapasa sa UPCAT ah.

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Posted by putomaia in Angst is so 90s, Random Rambling, Sorority Girl.
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new storm August 9, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Angst is so 90s, Sorority Girl.
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Pansin ko lang ha, every week may bagong problema. Eto bago na naman.

Itago na lang natin s’ya sa pangalang “whistle blower”. Actually hindi ko rin naman talaga alam kung sino sya.

Kaninang mga ala una, habang naghuhugas ako ng pinggan, tumunog ang phone ko. Dahil basa ang mga kamay ko, pinabayaan ko lang. Nung natapos na ako sa paghuhugas naalala ko may message nga pala ako.

Sabihin na nating pinapakialaman nya ang isang org ko. Agad- agad akong nagtext sa lahat ng “concerned” pero lahat sila sabi hindi nila alam kung kaninong numero yon. Hindi rin naman nya sinasabi sa akin kung sino sya, bakit nga naman di ba? Baka huntingin namin sya di ba?

Ang masasabi ko lang:

Girl, hindi kita kilala. Kung kilala man kita, pwes mula ngayon, kalimutan mong naging magkaibigan tayo. Wala kang karapatang manghusga lalung- lalo na ang mangthreaten. Wag kang magtago sa ilalim ng unlisted number girl!

Kung may isusumbat ka man sa amin, sabihin mo nang harapan! Natatakot ka?

Kung matapang ka, magpakilala ka! Ilang beses ka ring nagtext sa akin dba? At first parang kung sino ka. Nung nireplyan at nireplyan kita, bakit parang humihina ang mga atake mo? Sinabi mo pang wag kong sasabihin sa iba? Fuck you girl! Mind your own business!

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