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sona 2009 July 27, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Social Awareness.

I was supposed to go to a protest rally downtown earlier today, but the weather did not cooperate. So I just watched GMA’s SONA on free tv.

All lies. I really hope that would be her last SONA.

What happened to the real state of the nation? Is it against the law to talk about the real situation of the country in your speech? And why all those applause?

At the beginning, my sister and I started to count each time the people clapped. Not more than 15 minutes later, we got tired of counting.

All those good things she said, like our debt going down to half, our GNPs and GDPs increasing up to 50%, 8 million job openings, more budget for education, cheaper medicine, if all these things happened during her regime, people would not be walking in the streets, calling for her to step down her throne.

She said that in the last year’s global economic tumult, the Philippines manifested no sign of economic reduction. Then again, how could our economy further diminish if it’s already at the bottom to begin with?

Also, her SONA was filled with so many stabs against her so- called political critics. Let’s just say that these critics are also presidentiables for next year’s elections. I mean, it’s not that I am siding with those candidates, but why does she have to turn a STATE OF THE NATION ADDRESS into a political warfare?

This is in my opinion, another manipulation of the administration. Liar.

You can see the transcript of her speech here.


black balloon July 25, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Jitters, Private Me.

This is my declaration of independence.

They said you cannot turn your feelings on and off like a faucet. But why does it feel like all my feelings were suddenly turned off? The past weeks have been a whirlwind for me. I have been through extreme highs and extreme lows. And I have been able to figure out what I really felt all this time.

And yes, I’m still talking about the same person I have always talked about in “similar” blog posts. It feels as if I never had feelings for him. Yes, I’ve had feelings like… two years ago? But now, zero, zilch, nada, wala.

It feels as if I FORCED MYSELF TO LIKE HIM because there’s nobody else to like. It feels as if MY FRIENDS JUST ASSUMED THAT I LIKED HIM so I also chose to like him. But it’s bound to stop. I’m bound to realize that yes, the denial queen in me indeed existed, but not in the way my friends used to think.

The denial queen in me did not try to push those feelings away, (Teena). The denial queen in me tried so hard to like someone for the sake of liking someone. But no, the feelings did not exist.

Now, the denial queen is not anymore in denial, because there’s nothing to deny. It feels so liberating to acknowledge this fact. And I think it’s really interesting how I’ve been able to put through this for months.

How is this possible, you may ask? Probably because since summer, my mind has been conditioned to think that I miss him and that I like him so much that my body acted that way, too. But the mind learned; the mind already said sorry to the body for the deception.

And finally, I realized that there’s nothing wrong with not liking anybody. My time will come.

*Sabi ni John Rzeznik (omg tama ba ang spelling?), baby’s black balloon makes her fly.. drugs daw ibig sabihin ng black balloon.. Speaking of drugs, addicted ako sa kanta grabe. Matagal- tagal na rin ito sa playlist ko pero ngayon ko lang naappreciate.

review of the week July 17, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Random Rambling, Uber Friends.

Good news: Daryl George has a (pseudo?) boyfriend na in the katauhan of kuya Jerson. Yey!
Bad news: Teena lost her uber nice phone. What happened? Ninakaw? Boo! Boo! Boo!

Notice that I didn’t have any news about myself. Perhaps it’s because I don’t wanna dwell. It’s so depressing. Huhuhu, please don’t q_ _ _. You know who you are. And that’s it.

Anyway, I want to talk about the very nice afternoon I had. Special shout out to Karel aka Jeje who doesn’t read my blog because she doesn’t blog in the first place. Thanks Je, I really enjoyed our bonding. And eating session. We were able to say things we have been keeping to ourselves for a while, things we couldn’t really say to our other friends.

I wish I was able to make you feel better when you shared your feelings about him. And also about her. You know na. Basta you really made me feel better when you listened to me blab about him. You know na rin. I mean, these are the things I couldn’t tell anyone else. Except the people mentioned above din, haha.

I realized that maybe I haven’t fully gotten over him yet, though as what you pointed out, I’m getting there. Maybe I just stopped hoping? Gave up hoping? Perhaps. I’m not sure, too. Or perhaps I chose to stop dwelling. Mind power is powerful. Whatever it is that I’m feeling now, it’s surely better.

Anyway, like what I said, I really enjoyed our bonding moment. Inulan nga lang tayo, pero chox lang. Let’s do this again ha. Hehe

eating michael jackson July 12, 2009

Posted by putomaia in Social Awareness.

This is WAAAAY too late to publish a tribute to MJ, or even post something remotely related. Even Yahoo! has moved on from putting MJ on the featured news every second of every day.

But I just got off the television set. ABS CBN showed the 30th anniv concert of Michael. I don’t know what year it was but perhaps it’s in the late 90s or early 2000s. Becase Beyonce was still a Destiny’s Child girl and Justin Timberlake was still an ‘NSync guy.

And pota, ang amazing talaga ni Michael. Pucha. Moonwalk pa. Nakakaano. Ano? Basta.

I’ve never been an MJ fan, though I listen to his music, but I never was a fan. All I know is that as a child, I grew up amazed with his moves on MTV. Yuk ang tanda ko na. I grew up staying tuned on MTV so that I can see videos of Thriller, Smooth Criminal, and Black or White.

So I guess I’m part of the last generation who were able to appreciate Michael Jackson during their childhood.

I don’t think the world will have another Michael Jackson.

(And yeah, bakit ang sexy nya tingnan sumayaw? If others do his moves, nakakatawa lang pero pag s’ya parang tumpak.. Kaya pala inlab nanay ko sa kanya)

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Posted by putomaia in Angst is so 90s, Random Rambling, Uber Friends.
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frantic thesis mode July 5, 2009

Posted by putomaia in School is Cool.

THESIS was my top priority last weekend. And I’m proud to say that I didn’t stray from that priority. I didn’t even step outta the house. Isn’t it great?

Pero, I’m going to submit my super rough draft tomorrow to my adviser and I still don’t know what theory to use in my study. Okay I’m boring. Azzen. But I truthfully don’t have anything else in mind aside from that THESIS. Oh how I dread it.

I noticed that it’s been awhile since I last remembered my dream. Perhaps I’m really like that. I only remember my dreams during school breaks. I wonder what I’m going to dream tonight.

Okay, I’m only blogging because I just finished my last class for Rarejob and I’m going to finish my draft afterward. This is like break time muna. Life’s not doing great.

And speaking of NOT great, I really really have to buy a new phone. None of the available phones at home are working. Stupid phones. Fakken technology. I haven’t been receiving messages for what, almost 2 weeks? The hell. I have no idea who’s been texting me.

Oh, and I decided not to get an expensive phone. I made a deal with Tine that we’re only upgrading our phones if sure na na makakagraduate kami on April. Woohoo, BIG deal. Literally.

I. Really. Need. A. Phone. Now.